Seek Him with your whole heart.

"Blessed are those whose way is blameless, who walk in the law of the LORD! Blessed are those who keep His testimonies, who seek Him with their WHOLE heart." Psalm 119:1-2

This morning while doing my devotions, I was just sitting there kinda just thinking over all that God has allowed in my life right now and just being kinda confused and frustrated and He led me to the above verse. As I was sitting quietly before the feet of my LORD He made the words jump out of the page"who seek Him with their WHOLE heart." not just part of it but ALL of it. I struggle so much with that. Because I want part of my own heart for myself I don't want to just hand it over to God and do whatever He wants with it. That's where I got convicted. God just spoke to me so clear and said "how can I comfort you and speak to you if I don't have all of your heart?"See, I was trying to understand why God allowed these things in my life and yet how can I fully understand why He put them there if I'm not trusting Him? Simple answer: I can't. So this morning I prayed.I asked the Lord to lead and guide my every thought my every passion my every move and my every love. I'm standing fast in the fact that HE has a much better plan for my life then I do. I want to be used by Him in whatever capacity and I want to fully trust Him. And to trust Him with my WHOLE heart. Those of you who read this, I ask for your help in keeping me accountable in this and to encourage me in it. I know it won't come easy for me but I also know that the imposssible can be done with the help of my one True Love.

encouraging words.

This morning when I got to work I had an e-mail in my inbox that was such an encouragment to me. Here it is:
Heather, Someone you know very well wanted me to send this to you:
Heather my daughter,
The depth of my love for you is beyond human comprehension. The sacrifice that was made for you was done from a heart of love for you. There never was and never will be a greater sacrifice made than was made by My son for you. The pain, sorrow, suffering, agony and blood that was shed was done with you on My mind. You my daughter are a part of Me, My family, the family of God. Ho how I love you and how I love to spend time with you. As you continue to seek My face and follow after my percepts and ways, you will see My hand in all you do.You will have no need to fear your future, because I your God have promised that I would never leave you or forsake you. I am the author and finisher of your faith. The owrk that I have started in you I will complete. This does not mean that trials and difficulties are there for your benefit. They develop character and godliness. During these trying times you may wonder where I am. I am right there working all things for your good. My daughter, what I desire from you is for you to trust me completly. As you do, you will see My wonders in your life. The future I have for you is beyond your wildest dream. For I have said " Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand." Go in my peace and experiance life's very best!

I love you,
Your Heavenly Father

That encouraged me so much and blessed my morning.

"quote"

"I hope that my acheivments in life shall be these: That I will have fought for what is right and fair, that I will have risked for that which mattered, and that I will have given help to those who were in need, that I will have left the earth a better place for what I've done and who I've been."
C. Hoppe

I want a celebration...

This past Wednesday I went to my great grampa's funeral. It was sad and kinda strange all at the same time. Sad because I don't know where he is now and because when talking with my great gramma she just broke down and said " I just thought he would never die" but wierd because the ceremony was done by a lady who knew nothing about this man or his family. The whole ceremony was only like 15 minutes long. But I have decided that when I die and I have a funeral, I want everyone to be happy! I mean really happy. I want it to be the biggest celebration ever. The reason being because I know where I'm going after I die. And my journey is just beginning. I have all of eternity to sit at the feet of my Father! I can't wait for that day!!!!!

the old ones are the best!

do you ever have those people in your life that you may not talk to for 8 months out of the year and then one day you're talking and hanging out with them again? well, I've decided I love that! The kind of freinds that just pick up where they left off. It's the greatest to know that you can be that comfortable with someone and it doesn't bother either one of you. This only happens with the old ones though. You can't have new friends and not talk for weeks on end and pick back up because they don't know you as well. So I've decided I love the old ones the best!!!!!

passing away

Over the past few months my great grandpa's health has been slowly going in a downward spiral. He has lung cancer. Although I have only met this man once in my 19 years of being related to him, when you know someone could be gone at any moment it hits pretty hard. We went to visit him yesterday after we had received a call saying that he could pass away now at any moment. When we got there he was laying in a hospital bed in his living room,unconcious and gasping every 4 breaths for more air. You never want to see anyone like this. I think it really puts life into perspective, I don't know if he was saved or not (my guess is no.) as he is laying there he has a gold necklace that is an ace of spades. I look and think to myself, " what was this mans life goal? what was it that he lived for? what were his passions? what were his fears?" I wish I could have known this man better and share with him the love of Christ. So my plug to all who read this...stay in touch with your family, no matter what. Grampa passed away this morning around 9am. I pray for my Gramma that she would be comforted through this really rough time. She cried a lot yesterday saying " how do you deal with something like this? This man is my husband, my best freind and I have been with him for 65+ years?" Honestly I don't know how anyone could handle that. But through God's strength you can acheive the impossible.